Painting Through Resistance

I just posted my very first YouTube video on the new SoulFully Creative channel — and of course, I want to share it with you, but this isn’t just about a video. It’s about trust.

I’ve been circling around starting a YouTube channel for a while now. It wasn’t some huge, dramatic block, but more of that quiet, subtle resistance — the kind where you say “maybe next week” over and over again. I didn’t want to overcomplicate it, but the whole thing just felt like a lot. And I kept hesitating. It felt too hard. Too vulnerable. Too big.

I believe so deeply in the work I’m doing through SoulFully Creative. Intuitive art has changed my life in ways I didn’t expect and can't fully describe — and I know it can help other people too. But actually putting myself out there, on camera, on YouTube, where literally anyone can watch (and judge) me? That part still feels vulnerable.

So today, when the resistance started bubbling up again, I did what I usually do when I feel stuck:

I painted.

I didn't expect to suddenly feel fearless. I just set the intention to move the energy. To stop spinning in the “what ifs” and reconnect with what actually matters — which is showing up honestly, doing the work, and trusting that the next step will reveal itself when I’m ready.

During the painting session, I let myself think about the video — not in an obsessive way, just with gentle awareness. Afterward, I wrote down my worst-case and best-case scenarios and reframed the worst ones into soul perspective (which is something I do a lot when I feel stuck in fear or resistance). This simple act of "painting it out," helped me come back to this simple truth:

Posting the video isn’t all that different from painting, or anything else in life for that matter.

I don’t know how it will turn out.
I don’t know who will see it or what they’ll think.
But I do know I’ll handle whatever comes, just like I always do.
And that’s enough.

So I posted it. Finally.

🎥 Art Was the Missing Piece I Didn’t Know I Needed

If you’ve been holding back on something — a project, a conversation, a leap — I highly recommend sitting down to paint about it. No expectations, no pressure, just 15 minutes of quiet creative space. Let the energy move. Let your Soul speak. Then see how you feel.

Sometimes we don’t need another pep talk. We just need to do the thing that brings us back to ourselves.

Here’s the painting that helped me get there: